Purpose

There are many times these days I want to drop everything im doing and scream for a good 5 minutes or more. Then i remind myself whatever im upset about - doesnt really matter.

None of this really matters. Patience. Patience C. Thats what you need. Choose your words / actions carefully. Once uttered / done they cannot be taken back - ever.

Just drift through life somehow, believing earthly relationships are mortal, temporal, futile to hold on to. Nothing here is forever. "I love u forever - for infinity" What is that? Do i even know what eternity means?

Earth is ever changing - so is everything in it. I detest that at times.

Not asking for utopia - just some peace. The more the world gains technological advances - the more unsettled, devoid of love it becomes.

As for man, his days are as grass: as a flower of the field, so he flourisheth. For the wind passeth over it, and it is gone; and the place thereof shall know it no more.

I should remember how short my life is here, be more humble and good. All Glory To God, The Almighty Yahweh.

The Elegant Universe

Today I watched this 3 hour long program that made me wonder about a lot of things..

I would fail miserably to try and explain what i felt when i saw it.. so i think you should go ahead and watch this amazing explanation of what is known as The String Theory.

http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/elegant/program.html

Warning: WATCH only if the urge to find out about the ultimate truth about the universe interests you.. in even a small way.. :)

all still crashing down

hmmm..

everything still isnt alright. the pain is still the same.
i should have been selfish too.
i ve lost my friends.
i m living a lie.

well wadayakno

endless waiting didnt get the best of me
im still alive and kicking
i waited enough for me
to feel like im back on my feet

sometimes i feel like i ve been in a deep and dark pit
i tried to climb out - fell back
then i managed to reach the light
sometimes i feel like im on the brink of falling back inside..

i can see both the darkness and the light from here..

endless waiting got the best of me

this is the point in my life when there is complete uncertainity
uncertain of life
everythin seems to depend on something which in turn depends on something else
everythin is building the path - to me turning completely insane
i ve lost it
im tired.. of the endless waiting for somethin to happen, which is completely irrelevant to the psycho me
i feel like i ve been waiting for these silly things to happen my entire life.. im waitin and waitin.. day in and day out
i could really kill someone rite now
losing all sense of sanity, dignity and self esteem

everythin passes and hope this doesnt take me along - when it passes

~like siamese twins~

No two people can be together forever, UNLESS they are physically stuck to each other. Sometimes I wish I were stuck to the wonderful people in my life. It would be such a fun life if I were practically stuck to them! There would be no more 'good-byes', 'see you soon', 'i ll miss you' or ' i miss you'..

We hear that its not so bad if people who like each other are apart, as it increases their need and love for each other. The longingness to be with someone is good it seems!!! I dont agree with this at all; I love each and every moment spent with the precious people I care for and would not want to be separated from them. My love only increases day by day; whether I'm with them or not. So why should I be made to feel so desperate to be with them all the time? *sigh*

I want to be stuck to you guys =) Love you all. Miss you lots! Come.. Lets become siamese-ed!

Guitar or the Veena

music amuses me.
im awed by many styles of music.
i love songs with good lyrics, but im completely mesmerized by songs with great strings.
a friend recently gave me a few carnatic classical instrumentals.. and i must say, they are mind blowing. the way the musicians play their instruments is amazing, practically talking to the listener.
when im listening to led zeppelin, pink floyd or any song with great string action! i feel the same way.. they all are communicating in a world unknown.. and we get pulled into it once in a while when we get lucky.. by listening to their masterpieces.

Strings - in any form - is something that makes me get wound up in a song..

A few of my fav tracks with lots of strings..

- stairway to heaven ~ Led Zeppelin
- high hopes / comfortably numb ~ Pink Floyd
- free bird ~ Lynyrd Skynyrd
- marivere ~ Shanmugapriya
- but it rained ~ Parikrama
- ram rama ~ Dharbarikanada