Mummy

My mother or Mummy..... Mumma with love..

She is a magnificient lady. She can do anything. She is the best manager that i have ever seen. She s perfect. She makes the most finger-licking good food. She loves us. She has always been invincible to me! She s very smart and brilliant! She is God-fearing. She has the softest hands in the world! She's also the one who gets me worked up the most.. shes capable of bringing up the past at the most abrupt time. LOL. We used to fight a lot when i was an adolescent, but now i know why she used to do what she did... i was a rotten child! Well.. its been a long time now.. since i know this wonderful woman, who gave birth to me, the one who i resemble in appearance.

She needs help and im far away. She still works and i feel awful about it. I love her so much. She has been a heart patient for sometime now.. 10 years maybe. She has rhuematoid arthritis and today the doctor told her she has osteoporosis too. All these things combined! and she is still working.. even shifts...

No offence to women who are house wives.. but there s no way most women could do what my mother did all her life. She took care of me and my brother. Worked hard for us.. Now i want to take care of her... and im not in a position to do that. I know the effects of the diseases she has.. and it hurts me to know that she in such terrible pain.

I adore her! Wish i could help her soon..

happy

hehe.. read my previous post before u read this!
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today my lab mate came over to my cube, with some traditional sweets from her home town.. I did not want to look at that guy hovering behind her.. after what happened yesterday! Anyways, she gave me the sweets and i thanked her.. and said.. "oh this is frm your country? thats cool!" and she said.. "yea my husband.. (pointing at the guy behind her) brought them from home."

woww.... i was soooo happy.. I think she wud ve thot i was MAD to smile so much for the sweets. In one way.. its good for me.. she ll definitely give me more of those sweets :P .. But MORE than that.. im happy i made a mistake.. and that, the guy hoverin behind her wasnt the guy from my lab and was actually her husband, who s come down to singapore! [Man! Just wen i thot i could make out the difference btw how these foreigners looked! haha!]

After that... they walked out of the lab.. he had his hand arnd her waist :) again! They must be happy they have each other.. Im happy too.. there is still love and friendship.. :)
Happy for the world, for being this way..

sad

i dont know if its weird to cry for someone u dont kno..
but i ve done it many times.. i feel so bad for some strangers that i come across.. and some that i ve never actually seen.. but who i know exist..

hmm.. i feel really bad for my lab mate's husband.
she s married and i kno that he s in their home country and not here in singapore.
today evening i was coming towards my lab.. after attending to nature's call and i saw her leaving with this guy, who s also from my lab. which is fine i kno.. BUT he was holding her around her waist!.. i felt so choked!
the whole day i was denying the fact that he s been hanging arnd too close near her.. thinkin to myself.. naah i must be crazy for having a doubt.. "she s married!!"
hmm.. but wen i saw that he s got his arms arnd her waist.. i cudnt deny it anymore..
i felt so bad.. so bad.. that i cried as i entered the lab.. i cried for a while.. spoke to a frend.. who understands..
my lab mate and that guy left.. probably happy.. that they have each other..
but im sad.. im very sad.. no one can be trusted.. wat bout her husband.. the one she talks to everyday evening frm the lab!?
marriage.. love.. friendship.. everythin is such a big question now!
the same thing has happened couple of months bac.. with one of my frens here.. and i cried then too.. she wasnt too close.. but yea.. she was a frend.. i cudnt believe she wud do somethin similar to this.. hmm..

probably no one who reads this.. feels as much bout this issue.. since its part of life.. where people have to move on..
its better not to get attached to anyone too much.. like a frend was sayin.. mentioned in Fountain Head.. to be an idle person.. stop feeling so much.. and not be bothered bout anyone.. to achieve success..
i dont think i can be idle.. then..
i ll keep cryin for that unknown person..
yea. i d rather be this.
sad.
sad for my fren's husband.
sad for my fren.
sad for the whole world, for being this way.

the brain!

Have u ever felt that your brain is a marvellous thing!.. that there s probably no way someone could tell you..how you jus did that!!

I have these strange moments when I start humming a song... and i kind of wonder why the song came to my mind... and then realize that I was using the same thing at the time i was listening to the song the last time.. or probably was in the same place the last time i heard the song..

I hope you are able to understand what im tryin to explain here..

The brain is obviously a very powerful organ in our body. More powerful than we can imagine.

What i jus did a few minutes bac was.. i hummed a song casually while making tea.. Sister Hazel's "Hard to Say".. and then i immediately followed it up with Coolio's "I ll see u wen u get there".. I havent heard these songs in a loooong time and dont have them on my laptop either.. Both these songs are associated wit my school days; i used to listen to a lot of radio then.. and these songs were played many times on air during those days..

I put up this post because i was amused by the capacity of my brain to pick up songs associated with each other.. and make me hum them without my knowledge..

This has happened to me a number of times... where i wonder why i suddenly hummed that tune.. and realize that there s a relationship btw the song and the thing i was using or state of mind i was in.. So, there s a TIME dependent link.. between the song and the situation! The brain has links between songs and things, places, people.. etc. which is so amazing!

Wonder what else this human brain can do! Oh! and dreams r another thing that really stun me bout the non voluntary capacity of the human brain! :)